When Their Triggers Become Your Battlefield
I lived being engulfed by another’s triggers.
Each time I stood up for myself, I was labeled as disrespectful. But here’s the truth—they were not acting in a way I, or anyone could respect. And pointing that out only made me seem even more disrespectful in their eyes. Their triggers became missiles, aimed at destroying any truth I tried to bring to light.
While I was seeking deeper connection and understanding, I was met with rejection, resentment and blame.
Each time I brought attention to their actions or expressed how I felt, they treated it as an attack. My goal was never to start a war~ I just wanted to be seen, heard, and understood.
But instead, I was met with an iron wall of defensiveness and misunderstandings.
Their past pain surfaced at my words, and instead of recognizing that pain as their own, they put the blame on me.
I was invested. I was communicating how they could show up for me, how we could build something stronger together. I was telling them how to love me, how I could feel safe, seen, and valued in the relationship. Because it mattered to me. But they didn’t see that. They only saw felt the discomfort of having to face their own wounds.
The Hard Truth About Love and Growth
Your partner is the person who sees the deepest truths about you. And unfortunately, that includes the parts you’d rather hide—the wounds, the fears, the behaviors shaped by past pain. Your partner gets the clearest view of your shadowed self. A strong relationship is a powerful space where both partners have the opportunity to grow and heal together.
But that only happens if both people are willing to grow.
This is where many relationships break down. If one person refuses to acknowledge the truth being reflected back to them and instead prioritizes defending their actions over improving them, the relationship will stay in a endlessly repeating cycle of pain. Without mutual effort and emotional responsibility, there’s no chance of moving forward toward a stronger connection.
What You Can Do When You’re Caught in This Cycle
If you’re in a relationship where your attempts to communicate are met with defensiveness, blame, or emotional warfare, here are a few things to consider:
1. Pay attention to patterns.
If every conversation about your feelings turns into an argument about how you said it, or you’re constantly walking on eggshells to avoid setting off their triggers, take note. These patterns will tell you if they are capable of meeting you in a place of healing… or if they’re only interested in protecting their ego.
2. Set boundaries, not expectations.
You cannot make someone see their own pain or change their behavior. But you can decide what you will and won’t accept in a relationship. Instead of waiting for them to grow, decide what your emotional limits are and stick to them!
3. Stop taking responsibility for their emotions.
Or expecting them to responsible for yours. Their triggers, past wounds, and reactions are not your burden to carry. Healthy communication means both partners take responsibility for their own emotional regulation. If they refuse to do this, you’re not in a partnership~ you’re in an emotional battlefield.
4. Ask yourself: Is this relationship helping me grow?
Be brutally honest with yourself. Love should not require you to shrink, silence yourself, or constantly prove your worth. A healthy relationship should make you feel safe, valued, and emotionally supported. If you’re constantly drained, doubting yourself, or feeling unseen, it may be time to let go.
The Reality of Healing in Relationships
Growth in a relationship happens when both people are willing to face the hard truths about themselves.
But if one person refuses to do the work, the weight of the relationship falls entirely on the other.
That’s not love~ that’s emotional exhaustion.
You deserve to be in a relationship where you don’t have to beg to be understood. Where love is not a battle, and your emotions are not treated as weapons.
Where being seen and valued is not a privilege you have to “earn”, but the very foundation of your connection.
And if that’s not what you’re getting~ it might be time to stop trying to grow something that was never willing to grow in the first place.